Forever, For Always by Quinn Sabrina

Author:Quinn, Sabrina [Quinn, Sabrina]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2015-06-09T07:00:00+00:00

Chapter Eleven

It’s the fifth morning in a row that I’ve woken up in a pool of sweat and tears. It was just a dream. No, it was not a dream, it was real. It really happened, every single horrible detail of it. I pushed that night out of my mind for so many years, refusing to believe it was my reality. Now, every time I close my eyes, I relive every single second of it.

I start my morning as I always do. Shower, dress, and get ready for work just as I would do in my daily robot form. I’m exhausted trying to act like everything is okay. I do it for Benny, though. Isaac has not come into the café all week. I pushed away the only person to ever seem to care about me other than Dominic. I can no longer shake the night after night nightmare and Benny seeing me like this is the last thing I want. I kiss him quietly goodbye once Gloria arrives at my apartment and swiftly make my way out the door without speaking to her. I just can’t talk to anyone today. I’m not sure how I’m going to even be able to work in this condition. I feel as my walls are finally caving in.

Halfway to the café, I decide to take a detour to try to find the cathedral I’d seen last week after leaving Domino Park. The only thing that is going to get me through another day is walking through its doors. I turn off my phone upon entering and throw it into my purse.

I’m not sure how many hours I spent inside. After a very lengthy, overdue confession, I finally make my way out of the building in a daze. Rain is coming down in sheets. Of course it would be, I think to myself. I have a good seven blocks to walk to get back to my apartment, that is, if I can even remember how to get back to it from here.

I walk left down a road I didn’t take to get here, hoping it would be a shortcut back to my street, but I’m wrong. Somehow I’m now lost in what looks to be the worst part of the neighborhood, all while the rain refuses to let up on the downpour. I feel like its God crying along with me over how disappointing this beautiful world he created can be. I pull out my rosary from my purse to take advantage of the long walk I have ahead of me. I can’t be around Benny like this anyway.

The sound of a car slowing beside me catches my attention but I don’t break my concentration. “Vada! What on earth are you doing all the way out here? Everyone has been looking for you,” I hear Isaac’s voice yell. I stop walking just as he stops his car on the side of the street. I look up at him through the opened passenger window, acknowledging him.

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